For me, there's nothing, NOTHING as beautiful as the love of an animal. No... Maybe not only love. But that look of "thank you" in his/her eyes.
Sometimes when i feel so lonely, worse than anyone in the world, when i feel as a rubbish i...
For example now. And in this moment, cat whom i partially saved life, because i get it out of the shelter when he refused to eat and i took him far away to Gdansk, to give him to my mother... He comes to me, puts his paw on my leg and starts to purr. And nothing is the same in that moment. Nothing is important except this one thought. "I was so scared, so alone, but you helped me and my life is okay again. Thank you. I love you."
Say whatever, WHATEVER you want, but i do see it in his eyes. And it's not only an empty talking like "omg, am so cool, i save cats and one says THX, yeah." I really, really feel it.
That's why i help animals. I never felt anything like that from a human. Nobody ever made me feel that touched, only this one little tabby. Nobody looked this happy when he saw me, only my dog. My anatomy professor said, that there's nothing as beutiful as a thankful animal.
People are never this honest. They're too proud to be. And because of this we are all so disappointed...

I'm so alone right now. I don't have gg and all... And even if i had there are so many people i would love to talk with but i'm too scared. I don't know, for exapmle Majka from my old school, Bartek from my studies or Marta or Marcin from Pieczara. Whoever. There are so many of them...
I hate my shyness. I know a lot of people think i'm swaggering myself and put myself above them, but it's not true. I'm just too shy to say even a word without thinking. Too shy to laugh. I'm filled by emotions, but i'm too afraid to show them. I can only type a lot of words on my keyboard...

No, no, no, not that again.
I'm a little drunk, that's all.
But never mind. The only thing i want to say, is that there's nothing better in life than see a poor, skinny, scared pet, and later see him not dead, but happily laying im sun spot on the carpet.
Nothing.
It's so worth giving upon my life for. Not being rich, beautiful, famous and all that shit.
I love them. I really, really do. I think i always will.
And i'll help...