joga-maciejsdottir

Since i got some time to draw lately and want to learn it a bit, to give myself a little pressure and variety of work, i've decided to open requests. I'm doing pencil portraits from photos - faces and full bodies. However, you can ask me to draw something else and i'll decide will i menage to do it. Examples are in my gallery. It may take a long time for me to do those, but i want to finish them and close it at the end of September. I'm not taking any more than 10, but i don't expect to reach this number anyway since i don't have any watchers ;) If you'd like to pay me for my work for whatever reason - i don't accept money for i don't have

Previous journal pisses me off, so i've decided to make a new one, even if i don't have anything particular to say. Lately i've been practicing drawing more. I bought myself couple of pencils and stuff. Thinking about getting some watercoloured pencils or something tough. Black and white pictures are quite boring. But nevermind. More important for me is that i never thought i can draw. I thought about myself as a writer, poet, maybe a little of singer, but never artist. And everything i've been uploading in my gallery lately i made without any practice before. I don't know how much progress i'll be able to make in year or so, but for now i'm

I don't know how much longer i can pretend that everything is OK. But still it's so pathetic to cry for help. And there's that scary possibility that nobody would come and nobody would care. I'm so lonely and pathetic. But this is just what i deserve. The truth is i don't want that badly for others to like me. Everything i want is me to like myself... But why the fuck should i? I'm so lonely and pathetic. But this is just what i deserve.